The truth about twelve

happyhitcher-deactivated2012042 asked: Hey there.
I saw you had Tumblr on one of your posts on TSR and decided to come be nosy.
I love your blog :) And you do Further Maths, awesome, I do to hehe :D
- I'ma just casually follow you now, if you don't mind! :)

- Boobies.

Haha, I think I’ve been nosy on your blog before…

Haha, yep I do further maths - thinking it might have been a mistake though haha.

Just beautiful…

This is my inspiration, one day I’ll be able to do that :)

…maybe…

Very scary, but I do feel very grownup. The hardest question on the numeracy paper was asking how much a £300 sofa is in a 20% off sale - I think further maths qualifies me for that. And the hardest in the literacy paper was when my mind went blank and I couldn’t remember how to spell piece/peice. I before e except after c. But even now it looks right either way.

Doesn’t matter anyway, because I passed and now I have an interview for my first ever job. I’ve never had an interview before, so I’m not holding out hope for actually getting it. But it would be nice.

Revision isn’t going brilliant either - I am losing motivation to do it so much, and keep finding other things to do. I keep trying to reassure myself by saying that I’m sure it’ll be fine, and I’m doing as much as I need to. But I know that while that may be true, if its not, then I’ll regret it so much come results day. So here we go, serious revision now.

hayflick asked: I followed you from TSR and the biology revision thread </casualstalking> x

Haha, don’t worry, I do that all the time…

And if you don’t mind, I’ll just casually stalk you back… Not that you have much choice :P x

lornafinlay:

nicoleconner:

“Ah, the wonders of airbrushing! Pop princess Britney Spears allowed pre-altered images from a Candies ad to be released, along with the digitally-enhanced ones, as a way of telling young girls to keep their body image realistic.”

omg what a babe

aw I really respect her for this :)

I never knew they could do this much with airbrushing… They’ve made her bum more perky, slimmed her legs, massively, and made them look smoother. They’ve even got rid of the creases on her neck where she’s got her head turned. Its so good she released it though :)

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musicrushh-deactivated20111215 asked: hey, i just want to say i was nearly in the same position as you and know how you feel...though you will meet so many new people at your new job and the world is your oyster. Your friends are always going to be visiting home don't forget. You also have the luxury of having time for yourself and doing what you really want to do so in those ways i wouldn't have minded a gap year!! best of luck with the future xx

Aww thankyou so much :) Yeah, I’m trying to look on the bright side, and those are definitely good points! But I think its just a bit scary really - thanks so much :) Made me feel a lot better! x

Next year everyone will go away. I know one person who is definitely staying, and I don’t know how much I’ll see her. I barely see her now we’ve left high school - as much as I used to love her, and as close as we were, it isn’t like that anymore. I could just call her up and tell her I miss her, but thats a scary thing to admit. I don’t want to tell people that I’m feeling lonely.

And there’s one other girl who may be staying. I’d love to see her more often as well - but again, I don’t think I will. We used to be SO close. We are really similiar, perhaps more than I realised even in high school, but I don’t see her often enough.

I miss them all. And next year I won’t even have the option of seeing them more often. I’m really afraid that I won’t make friends at work or something, and I’ll just spend the year alone. Thats part of what makes me so determined to do something in the summer at the end - go away and meet people, hopefully practising for when I go to university.

I’ve got my boyfriend, but he isn’t here all the time. I don’t want him to be here all the time - I want to be able to survive without him.

Well this was meant to be a diary, so here’s a good rant.

First, my parents. I was sat working, feeling surprisingly motivated to do chemistry revision, and I was in the living room as usual. I feel so much less distracted there than in my own room.And they come home, drunk, and my mum asks if its okay for them ‘to be in here’. At first I was thinking thats unusually polite, until I realised how sulkily she was saying it. So they come in and turn the tv on nice and loudly, and start discussing whatever rubbish they were watching, even more loudly. Fair enough, watch tv, but no need to have it on that loud if you’re going to talk over it.

I can’t help but feel that I am being selfish about the whole thing, but I don’t think its unreasonable to not want to work in my room. I know thats what my desk is for, but since I spend every day in there doing whatever I fancy, its soo easy to get distracted. There’s nowhere else to go. We have literally got the living room and  the kitchen, so even when I don’t want to work, my room is the only place to go, since they are always in the living room and watching rubbish on tv. I went to my friends house, and she had basically spread herself out in the dining room for revision - nothing in there to be distracted by, and my boyfriend has got the sun room.

This is why I think I’d like to go and work in the library - but the problem with that is I can’t possibly carry all the notes and textbooks I’d need for a days revision. Very difficult, and makes me pretty annoyed. Now I’m too worked up to work in my room - which is why I’m ranting on here.

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Second thing I wanted to write about was my boyfriend. He is soo wonderful, and I really do love him. But I hate how blunt he is sometimes. It feels like when he has a strong opinion on something (everything) he has to get it out, and I can not get a word in edgeways when he’s like that. It’s like I’m not allowed to disagree. Not that I could - I don’t have a chance to get my point across. When I agree with him, its fine, I don’t mind not being able to get anything out. When I don’t agree, I feel like I’m sitting there and taking him lecturing at me. Even if its just a tiny thing, it just makes me feel awful.

When I spoke to him about it before, it caused probably the biggest argument we’ve had, and he promised he’d try and think a little bit more before he gets so aggressive about sharing his opinion. But he hasn’t. Yesterday I text him to tell him about me and my mum not being able to find two of the shops we were looking for, and he replied saying something like thats a bit pathetic. That hurt me. And today I mentioned something completely different, and he went off on one saying how ridiculous something was. I tried probably three times to start a sentence that contradicted him, but he interrupted me everytime. I don’t think we need to agree on everything, far from it, but if we need to at least agree to disagree. Rather than my opinion being shot to flames every time.

I think thats probably the only thing that really gets to me about him. And its worse now, knowing that I’ve told him that it hurts me, but he just did it again. I don’t want to have to talk to him about it another time, because it made everything rubbish last time.

ellakrystina asked: If the HCA maths and literacy tests are anything like what I had for my job at the hospital, expect something along the lines of the following:

'Here is a picture.
[cartoon picture of three women]
How many women are in the picture?'

That was the first question on one of my maths tests. I died.

Hahaha, thanks. I am not worried about these tests at all now. I think A level Further Maths qualifies me to count to three :P Although if I fail now… embarassing!

So on Monday, I booked my UKCAT, and ordered my UKCAT practise questions book, and also my personal statement writing book. AND I ordered a load(too many probably, I got a bit carried away…) of prospectuses(prospecti?)

I feel like I’m being a lot more prepared this year. I’m going to tailor my reference and personal statement to the universities I apply to, and I’m determined to do better at my UKCAT. I really don’t want to fail again this year… I don’t know what I’d do otherwise. I’ve been trying to think of a fifth option to put down, but its just like it was before - I can’t find anything that I would want to do, because everything I look at is just not medicine. I’m sure I’ll think of something :)

And also I heard back from one of the HCA jobs I applied for - I’ve got to do a literacy and numeracy test. I’m hoping it’ll be aimed at people who are barely literate at English, so it’ll be nice and easy for me :D If I do well enough in that, I’ll get an interview. And that will be good just for the experience of an interview (something I’ve never done before) even if I don’t end up with the job.

I do feel very grown up filling my diary with dates of holidays and training days for various things, but I  guess its about time really - I am 18, I should be feeling pretty grownup by now!